Hurry up and Wait

There is something humbling as a mother, wife, sister,and daughter in saying "I'm tired" which tends to translate to "I don't want to play anymore" in my head. I feel like I want to be a recluse for a while. Not in a bad way, just a "time to ponder" sort of way. I go through days of wondering if I DO too much, what should I be saying "no" to? My boss and friend, Robin, listens as I vent my concerns and I love that she doesn't try to sugar coat anything. "Sweety", she says, "there is a season for everything". I love that because it's true. Just because I don't feel moved to do something now doesn't mean that I won't be 100% ready for it later.
It's not about how much you do, it is about the shape your heart is in while doing it. I want to be someone that my children look up to and my husband admires when I'm serving God. So how should I feel when I'M the one staying home to do laundry and vacuum the house instead of going to church on Wednesday night? Aren't I supposed to be setting an example? How do you do this when you are spiritually exhausted? ... The Bible tells us we wait ... In Psalm 27:14 it says this, "Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!" Wow, he wants me to wait, I know this because it is mentioned twice in one verse.
This scripture makes me excited for what is to come after the wait is over.


What are you waiting on?